when you are well taught in grace, you know self-consciousness will lead to sin-consciousness.
but there are so many things i want to tell You i don't know how to start so i'm going to start by writing.
i have been the most harsh person ever to the friends i hold dearest to my heart. i love them. more than a lot of other people and they are the ones who can hurt me the easiest. but everytime i see them, i lost the smile i always had. there is joy to see them, but also an unknown anger... sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me. sometimes i thought maybe if i stop seeing them altogether i might be happier. but then again, these girls are important to me.
my arrogance does not come with the problem of humility to submitting. somehow i don't know how to explain it. i stop treating some people as equals? i'm not a fair person. and i want to be. all are the same before you but i know i am the most beloved child of You.
take away the anger, the arrogance and the ignorance. only You can do it.