always.there
Monday, March 17
sometimes u wonder why some people think so much of themselves.
to them, everyone around them are inferior.
more cannot be said because they think every other word is being unfair, bias and rude to them.
their self thought perfectness,
makes them what they call themselves the perfect angels.

and i just simply feel they are a joke in life today.

no one is without flaws.
but they feel no need to heed anyone's advices.
even though they are in a place they do not understand.
they act as if they own the place.

i know i am a person of many flaws.
one being the frankness of words i use with people i care for.

if i have never said anything mean to you, something is wrong.

however, the irony in things are to keep their flaws a hidden secret.
because i have no right over them.

haha
where did the freedom of speech go?

i have never seen my mum keeps her mouth to herself so much.
she cannot reprimand cos they don't belong to her.
but i cannot stand it any longer.
my aunt says to allow them a chance to see a working world.
but if they never open their hearts, minds and eyes, they will remain forever ignorant in the ruthless society.

different places demand different attitudes and ways to handle different situations.
but they feel they have learnt enough to handle the society as it is.

as someone who
was forced to grow up since i was 10,
became an mentally independent girl at 13,
started working since 14,
learnt the harsh reality of the actual world in both the harshest and mildest ways,
i don't ever dare till today say i have enough to go out there
and become an elite in society.

to say they are self centered is an insult those who may be self centered but still knows how to care.
i will have to give it another name.
selfish.

Friday, March 14
time.

God created it to be the same for everyone.

time to me, has been gone to the extent where i can no longer hold on.
i did and do many, tons and always more.
but i missed more important elements in the 24 hours i spent doing everything else.

i no longer know what's happening to dears who i don't see often enough.
even those i see often enough, i stop asking.

blog is wonderful.
in its own way.
we tell the world what is happening.
we know what is going on in our world.

but the most basic form of communication has been lost.
more than ever.

i stopped listening very long ago.
i hate myself for that.

now, i even stopped asking.

ironically
i know all these myself.
but i don't seem to be doing anything about it.

if writing it down is useful,
then why hasn't all work since so long.

i don't give up on the blog for simple reasons.
they contain more than words.

they contain memories of the times which i have forgotten.

if i were to open past memories, what can i find?

time is life.
i live a life, making use of time,
but i have never till today understand,

the most wondrous values of time.

words.story
words.
cannot tell the heart's story.
pictures.
cannot say the millionth word.

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life.is a gift.from our Father above.
every second.is simply His Love.

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