When was the last time i talk to any of my friends?
When was the last time i had dinner with my parents?
When was the last time i spent time with myself?
When was the last time i went out feeling as carefree as i used to be?
When was the last time i enjoyed my time as i always had?
When was the last time i bask in God's wondrous love?
I love what im doing now. No way do i see it as a chore.
But why do i feel time sucking out of my life.
24 hours a day.
minus 5 sleeping and eating hours, im either in school, at tuition or doing school work.
that is 19 hours.
19 hours a day, i think bout work, in school n tuition.
i can't even hear myself think anything else.
i need a life?
i miss a lot of things.
i miss being able to chat with friends.
i miss being able to have a quiet dinner with my family.
i miss going out to enjoy.
i miss spending quiet time with myself.
i miss thinking to myself.
i miss spending time with God.
what am i doing now?
seriously.
so what if im enjoying myself in school. in architecture.
is that all i want in my life.
NO!
so what am i suppose to do?
talking is easy. exercising it is tough.
and some peeps always think i have it easy in my life.
i am not stressed up. i repeat that.
not stressed up.
im just upset.
to find my happiness in God.
everything else is nothing.
i wish for that as well.
but i no longer know what to hold onto and what to let go.
i ask to be a happy little girl.
but where is the happiness in me?
i find sorrow, wariness and bitterness.
and i growing in the Lord?
maybe i talk too much.
maybe